I feel awful today. I feel so fat and humongous. I follow people who are also poorly and I can’t help but compare myself to them, and every time, the conclusion is: I’m massive, they’re tiny, I wish I was as small as they are. I know that’s disordered and backwards and vileickyvile because they’re struggling and I wouldn’t wish this hell on anyone, but it’s how I feel and it’s not fair that I’m stuck in this awful, fat body and eugheugheugh